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Thanks, everyone, for being so supportive and sweet. I have a lot of good friends, and a lot of you are in the same boat, and a lot of you manage to keep it all together, and work a lot harder than me.

I went to the funeral today. It was not as depressing as I thought it would be. It was hard, but it was also hopeful. Some family members who are not members of the church spoke. They were sweet. Then our relief society president Carol Day spoke. She was so sweet and inspired. Those of you who know Carol know how sweet and funny and sincere she is. She gave a very beautiful tribiute to Anna. There was a beautiful violin solo by Liz Darling. She is a very accomplished violinist. It was amazing. Then the bishop spoke. It was very overwhelming. He looked like he was almost on fire. It was pretty cool. I have never seen anything like it. He apologized at the beginning of the service for losing his voice while he was conducting because he was getting over a cold. But when he stood there at the end of the service and testified of Jesus Christ and the truthfulness of the Gospel, and How Anna was with her Savior and was being taught the gospel, and that if they wanted to be a family agian, they would have to pray to their Heavenly Father so they would know what to do to be together forever. His voice became louder and clearer as he spoke. He looked so strong and powerful, so uncomprmising, so full of truth and righteousness, It was like he had become a conductor for the holy ghost and a current was flowing through him with so much power that I saw him shaking and full of light. I watched Anna's mother, who is not a member, but has been surrounded by the gospel all of her life, I saw her put her head down and nod in agreement, but she had to look away. It was such an unbelievable sense of the spirit of Heavenly Father in that chapel. No one could deny it. I have just felt so close to Heavenly Father all day. I feel like the whole experience has changed me. And I hope I can be better from this point on. I'll try harder. I'll do better. That's what things like this are for.

It is still a horrible loss for their family, and I know that they are in for some rough times ahead. But I hope they can lean on the truth of the gospel to get through it. I'll pray for them.

The clip below is from a video I watched a year ago with Derek. This song touched me so much. I have been thinking about it over the last few days. I had tried to find it on You tube before, but it has never been there, until now, when I really needed to find it. It's from Veggie Tales, but whoever wrote this song, has a perfect knowledge of Jesus Christ, what the Atonement and Resurection meant, and what it means for us. It reminds me of the answers I have know all along. It's true.
(Pause My Playlist before you watch)

There is more to the Atonement than just "Believing", but that is the best place to start.